Spent the better part of the weekend sleeping.

The current kneejerk reaction is to be a jerk. There is a thicker bubble now and it's more difficult relating to people.

Jokes are not as funny and though I get the point, I don't see the humour.

Welcome to my island. Population: 1

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The Biggest Sucker.

Was roped into joining this department contest of who could lose the most weight. I was thinking of going veggie anorexic whilst some have started to imbibe legal suppresants. One have been running and drinking protein shakes, some have joined clubs and I have decided to stick to my lazy ass lifestyle.

Been meaning to start my diet this week.

Which is what I said last week.

And the week before.

And the year before.

Maybe this is the push that I need.

Maybe.

The least expected are the ones who are leaving.

Or have left.

Or seriously contemplating other opportunities.

Me, I am going to remain steady.

More like slow.

Fasting for fast women.

Wish me luck.

Fragments

Went home at 3AM past Tuesday morning. Shift started at 6PM and there was no way in hell that I was going to wait until 4AM to go home at a "reasonable hour"

Took a regular bus (as opposed to an air conditioned bus) heading back to the south. The bus is a moving coffin of rust and drunken passengers. My feet rested against an old car battery and a window pane fell on some hapless persons head.

It was made of purple plastic and no blood was shed.
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Even at 3Am, the streets are hardly quiet. The last time I saw empty streets, I was in 1st grade and it was the holy week.
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Just spoke to you over chat and though I have ceased to look at your pictures, I can still see you in my mind. They way you smiled, the way you feigned concentration, the way you looked in surprise when you realized that I was going with you to the beach.

And sometimes, I still look at the door thinking that you will walk in. I know it's completely stupid but it doesn't matter. You, however, DO matter. I am experiencing another lawyerdude moment here, thinking that our story isn't done yet. But I know it is because I've been there and I have done lots.

And for some reason, I can tell you all these things and know that I won't regret having said them.

I miss, miss, miss, you.
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@ REI : Please send us a message indicating that you are relatively unhurt and well. I hope that you weren't too affected by the quake.

Super-Fish

Skipped work last night pleading back pain.

Been lethargic for the past few weeks. A slight shift of what I was like a few months ago which was mostly depressed at work. I am not depressed at work anymore but plain lazy.

I am almost content to just sit in my room to get lost in well loved tomes and allow my hair to get greasy as this is another weekend that allowed my slovenly ways to get the better of me.

Had a couple of friends here last Friday night. Leigh was regalling us of her adventures with random boys involving couplings in the dark and automobiles, Dodes of his meeting his wife (which is a different adventure altogether) and Luci turning pink from the gin. I roasted some rosemary chicken and stewed some mushrooms with garlic. Had a moments panic when I thought that my boss and another person were going to join. Not because I don't like them (I heart my manager --- he's the complete antithesis of ___ ) but because I was concerned that we would run out of chicken.

My PC is infected with a virus I can't catch. A random korean audio file blasts in the middle of whatever I am listening to. I have to restart the PC just to shut it up.

Sometimes, I am just so tired of being me.

I want to be lured back into the superficial world wherein I care about my looks. I want to be all airheady and flightly for a couple of days and channel Alicia Silverstone's Cher from Clueless. Throw in a Paul Rudd to complete the experience and that would be cool.

I can hear the hysterical roosters in my neighborhood going at it again. Maybe it's time to go to bed.

But a shower has more appeal.

Good night.

Afterthought (Or several weeks after,,,)

Afterthought or more like it's been several weeks after and you are still in my mind.

Or I still think about your crap jokes and terrible English and smile even while on the commute.

Or I still look at KFC and not want to go in.

Or I still can't wear headbands again.

Or I still can't stop checking if you're online.

Or I still see you in my dreams.

Or I still wonder what you are up to.

Or I still check the time difference.

Or I still want to see you.

Just one more time.