Tempt-ing

1. Career shifts can cause doubt.

I have been in the new company for the past almost six months and I am still at a point that I would have clear flashbacks of my former life.

Which just tells me several things:

1a. A part of me is still wallowing in regret over the stable, quiet , predictable life that I just threw away.
1b. I miss the blind adoration that comes along with being in a room full of people whose passing or failing depends on how well you teach.
1c. I have too much idle time in my hands hence the reason that my mind keeps on wandering around.

Went to a sort of high school reunion and I was shocked with how much things have changed. Some people's identities are rocks in my head wherein the smug satisfaction that I have been carrying around is just pointless. What do I have to be smug about? My life is not as peachy as I want it to be.

They are married (not a goal), with great jobs ( a sort of goal) and fabulous shoes (a dream not for the ent footed)

Who are these strangers?!

2. I have to stop sending my resume and not show up. That's just bad manners.

3. Listening to Adele's 21. It defies awesome.

4. Downloading Nicole Scherzingers Don't Hold Your Breathe and Jennifer Lopez's On The Floor. Torrent can't find J.Lo. Instead it will spout Spartacus, Airline Management and the like.

5. Watched an episode of this silly reality art competition. Some showed intense talent. The rest are just plain pretentious. Seriously? Performance art?

6. Nevermind, I'll find someone like you - Adele, Someone Like You.

7. Loving Auntie Janey's old fashioned Agony Column. Had a great laugh at the latest entry.

8. I find a mystifying sense of urgency at work --- finish the crap now so I can goof off immediately at StumbleUpon.

9. Imagining the floating hotel in Kerala. I still have the image of a blue room and white sheets.

10. Turning tables.